INCONSTANCY
 
It was a beautiful autumnal afternoon of final of September, I don't know the reason for which happens us equally to all when summer finishing, we try to begin new projects, new challenges, this for Susana was obsessive, every Autumn she began something that never finished, it is more, sometimes, in a few days she had abandoned it, it made her be depressed, to feel bad for herself and it made me to feel bad for her. This Autumn wasn't going to be different, it was Saturday, we went to a restaurant for dinner, we talked about us, about our future plans, until - Luis, I'm going to do a doctorate course - I was not surprised one year it was to learn how to paint, other to learn how to write stories, other to learn how to mount horse...... etc, - Susana, you know that later you have no time of making it and you feel bad, you know it well - - that means you believe me useless for being able to do it? - - you Know I don't mean that, you know perfectly I consider you intelligent and I know
that you are able to make any thing - - well, I have decided to do it and I'll do it - - Well, but this time I will help you, if you
don't finish the course, I'll punish you, and since now, every time that you stop to make something that you should make, I'll also punish you - she Smiled – I agree, but this time I'll do it well - we continued speaking normally, without playing that topic in the whole dinner. I knew, maybe, I should have made that much before, once she told me their parents never punished her, and when she noticed their friends were punished, she thought that their parents didn't love her, because of that she needed to be punished by her boyfriend when she deserved it, for helping her to overcome all her bad habits.

Three months later, it was Christmas, in that time I had spanked her several times, most of them for "to postpone the things", for not doing the things that she committed in the moment that should do them, and I must recognize that the system was working, her work was going finished in the dates that it must be, or, at least, she told me it. Many times I had asked her about her doctorate course and she always responded me that everything was going very well.

That afternoon we were listening music while we placed the decorations of Christmas in the house, I noticed that she was too
quiet and sad; I knew something happened to her - what is happening to you, Susana? - - Nothing - I didn't say anything more, I knew she told me it later or earlier. She came closer to me, she hugged me, she hid her head on my neck and began to cry, I allowed her to cry hugging her very strong, caressing her, my hand among her hair. When she was tranquilized, we sat down - Luis, I have deceived you, I abandoned the course 15 days after I began it, I just went twice to class, I have not made the works I had to do, I am not good for anything - I kissed her on the lips and I caught her hand - Susana, this can not continue in this way, nobody can make you to do anything if you don't want it, but you do it and you never end what
you begin and when you don't end it you harm to yourself. You also lied to me. You are 36 years old and you should begin to be responsible for your decisions, I'm going to spank you, and since now, I'll spank you every Friday for making you remember you should be responsible and constant. Understood? I know money is not your problem, but, do you know how many money you have thrown in that course? 3600 $. I'll spank you just now, come to the bedroom - almost in a whisper she asked - will it hurt me? - She always asked it before a punishment, maybe as the verification that it was a real punishment – yes, my love, it isn't a game - We went to the bedroom, we went in it, I went to look for the objects with those I planned to spank her, she stayed stand, next to the bed, I caught the brush, the slipper and the leather paddle, I sat down on the bed, I placed what I had caught to my right on the bed, I unfastened her jeans and I took it off, later her panties, I got up and I hugged her very strong, she also hugged me, we kissed each other on lips, I sat down on the bed, helped her to be placed
on my knees, I lifted her sweater to half of her back, I whispered her: - I love you -, she didn't respond.

I began to hit her with the hand, strong from the beginning, beginning on the down part of her buttocks, alternating both and
going up, later lowering another time, I don't know how many time I was doing that, she remained immobile, without complain, without crying, it felt the heat in her buttocks and saw how they had changed their color.

Next, I caught, the brush, I began to hit her with it, in the right buttock, the same as before, down, going up, this time she began to move, her right hand covered her buttocks in several occasions, I caught her wrist with my left hand holding it on her back. When I had completed fifty blows on her right buttock, I made same on her left, she continued without crying or to complaining, she moved, but she could no longer cover the buttocks, her hands were enough fastened.

Her buttocks were very red and with some bruises, but I knew that it should continue a little because I didn't want, it should happen like in some other occasion, in which she had told me that I had not hit her enough, that needed more to feel punished.

I took the paddle and I began to hit her as hard as I could, not very quick, but repeating several blows in the same place, after
five minutes spanking her with the paddle , I gave her ten blows more, but very quick and strong in each buttock and I loosed the paddle.

I gave her massages on her buttocks for a while, she remained immobile, I helped her to get up, she sat down on my knees, she hugged me very strong and she began to cry, I hugged her very strong and I allowed her to cry, I knew she needed that after each spanking.

She hugged me crying for about 10 minutes, she was being quiet little by little, I kissed her on her neck, and we kiss each other on lips for a lot of time, without saying anything.

- Has it hurt you? - - yes, but I deserved it, I didn't do the course and I lied you. While you hit me, I wanted to cry but I was
not able to it- - Do you know I love you Susana? - - Yes, only anybody who loved me could do it and I would only allow it to anybody who loved me-.

I made her to lie face down on bed and I began to cover her buttocks of cream and to give her massage with the cream on them, this time she was not quiet, she groaned of pleasure. – Are you really going to spank me every Fridays? - - yes, for five minutes each Friday, I think it will work. Do you agree? - - Yes -

We gave ourselves another very long kiss on the mouth.

(Luis R. September 2002)
 
SUSANA CAME BACK   

by Luis R

It was Saturday, I was at home reading, the phone rang, I watched the number on the screen, how could I forget that number, I just deleted it on the phone address list trying to forget her and a wonderful part of my life, it was her, I had thought lot of times if it happened I wouldn’t answer it but I answered it. Hello. Hello how are you? Fine Susana, and you? Good, I’d like to meet you. For a few seconds I was on silent. Are you there yet? Yes. I have important things to tell you. Ok I wait for you here. Bye. Bye. Lot of thoughts were in my mind, I remembered all the time she was my girlfriend, I also remembered when she left me three months ago. Would she want come back again? Would I want it? The door bell rang, I opened the door, It was her, I kissed her on her face, Come in. we sat on the couch and talked about insignificants things, I couldn’t wait anymore. What are you doing here, please? She lights a cigarette. Well, I love you yet, Luis, I made a mistake, I miss you, now I’m sure I want to be all my life with you, I have been with others last three months but I always missed you, I need all I had when you loved me, I know I made you a lot of pain and I deserve a punishment, please punish me and after it forgive me, kiss and hugs me. She started crying. And when are you going to leave me again, Susana? How can I be sure? You can’t, Luis, nobody can, I know I deserve you throw me out but I also know you love me yet, spank me as hard and long as you want and then forgive me and let me show you I love you. I kissed her on her lips. Ok, I’m going to spank you hard and after it I want we forget all and we’ll never talk about it again, ok? Yes. She kissed me. I went to my room and got the wooden paddle, I had spanked her lot of times with it but I thought this paddling could be the most important one in our lives. I came back to the living room and sat on the couch. Over my knees, Susana. I lifted her skirt and took down her panties to her knees, after it I started paddling her as hard as I could, first one on her right cheek, then another on the left, then on the right again…….. After a few minutes she started moving her bottom, trying to escape but I hold her strongly by her waist and I went on, hard, she started crying soundly but I hadn’t mercy, I thought she needed it and me too. After 20 minutes I stopped. Her bottom was too red and had lot of bruises, I dressed her. She sat on my knees crying. I hugged her, she was on my knees crying while I kissed her and hugged her for a long time. I was happy and I was sure she was happy too.

 

SUSANA DIDN'T WORK ENOUGH

Susana worked as a translator, she worked at home, she liked her job but many times she wasn’t able to start working every day. Many times she had cried while Luis hugged her when her work wasn’t over on time., It was happening that day, it was Saturday and both was watching a video on TV after lunch, Susana was on the couch, her head on Luis lap while he was playing with her hair. He noticed she was crying silently, he knew what was happening, she must get over an important translation next Monday. What happens? Nothing, leave me. I want help you. She hugged him and started crying soundly. It happened me again, Luis, I haven’t finished my work yet, I need it over tomorrow but I’m not going to be able to do it. Don’t worry, Susana, we both will be able to do it but you must start being an adult and work when you must do it and I’m going to help you about it. How are you going to do it? I’m going to spank you tonight before bed and every day you didn’t work enough you’ll get a spanking before bed, do you understand? Yes. Do you agree? Yes, but May we start next time, Luis? No, we are starting tonight. Is it going to hurt? Yes Susana, a spanking punishment must hurt, I’m very sorry but I’m going to do it because I love you, do you understand it? Yes, Luis. Do you know I love you, darling? Yes, I know.



They worked for all the evening, about 9 p.m. all was over, both were happy, they went to a restaurant for dinner, they didn’t talk about the spanking, she felt how he loved her and she was happy about it but she also was on fear about the spanking was coming, she knew she deserved it, she felt guilty and ashamed and she knew being punished would be good for her, she wanted acting as an adult but sometimes she couldn’t.



They came back home, she went to their bedroom, there was nothing for talking about then, she changed her clothes, she only dressed a long T-shirt over her panties and bra and sat on the bed waiting for him. After a few minutes he went in their bedroom and sat closed her placing a hairbrush on the bed. Do you know why are you going to be spanked? Yes. Why? I didn’t work enough, I wasn’t going to finish it on time, I acted as a child and I do it often. Do you think you deserve it? Yes I deserve it. Do you know I love you? Yes I know you love me and you are going to punish me because you love me. Well, over my knees darling. Yes. She went over Luis knees, he lifted her t-shirt and lowered her panties to her knees, he got the hairbrush and started spanking her hard, he gave 5 strokes on her right cheek, then 5 on her left cheek, then 5 on the centre on both cheeks, then the same routine again, he was doing it as hard as he could, she felt pain but she didn’t cry, didn’t moan, she only moved her bottom trying to escape the strokes, but she couldn’t escape, he was doing it well, she was feeling she couldn’t take anymore but tried to be in position, her hands went on her bottom, he held her hands on her back with his left hand and went on, he could see how her cheeks were too red, some weal on them, he had been spanked her for 10 minutes, he thought it was enough, he took her panties up. All is over my love. She sat on his knees and started crying soundly, he hugged her strongly, she was crying while he was hugging her for a long time, and after it she was quiet. How are you? Good, well my bottom on pain. I love you Susana. I also love you, Luis, Thank you, I deserved it, and I’ll try to be good. I know darling, but I’ll spank you when you deserved it. She kissed him. She felt she loved him. They went to sleep; he hugged her for all the night while she was sleeping, feeling she was the only woman in his life.


FIRST MEETING.

I probably liked spanking since I was born, I can remember being excited about spanking stories when I was about 7. I had had a few experiences, playing games with female friends when I was 16 – 17 and with a girlfriend when I was very young but I had never met my dreamed woman, a woman who shared my spanking feelings, a woman I loved and who loved me. By then I just chatted at spanking chat rooms and cyber-played there but I missed a real loving spanking relationship and I knew I’d probably never have it. I know to meet the love of your life isn’t easy and I think to meet it when you are looking for a very special person is more difficult, so I conformed to cyber playing.
One evening I was chatting at that spanking chat room where I played sometimes, all my cyber spanking friends were from other countries there but that evening, it was different, I met a woman, I liked her nick: daisy, I sent her a person to person message and we started chatting in English (I didn’t know she was Spanish) -Where are you from?- -I’m from Spain, you?- -I’m from Spain too- -Oh nice- -What’s your real name? Mine Luis- -Mine Susana- -Where do you live? I live in Sevilla- - I live in Barcelona- -well, it’s only about 1,30 hours by plane- After it we played online, she wanted to be a naughty daughter and we played dad / daughter I cyber spanked her, finally we gave our e-mails and told bye each other. I didn’t know if I’d meet her again.
I enjoyed that chatting but nothing had changed, I just had a new friend, Spanish but she also was far from me.

I looked for her for 2 weeks but I couldn’t meet her and I sent an e-mail, she replied it and we met again, we chatted about our hobbies, our problems, our jobs and our lives, since then we started chatting 4 or 5 hours everyday, we also played cyber spanking sometimes and at the end, one day, I phoned her and since then we started talking by phone everyday, we also sent photos of ourselves each other.

I was falling in love but I didn’t want believe it, I thought it couldn’t happen chatting or talking by phone, I also thought a long distance relationship isn’t easy, I didn’t want losing our cyber relationship but I was on fear about a real relationship, everyday she told me –come here- and I always had an excuse, till one day she was angry –Luis I want you come here next weekend- -I’m sorry, I’m busy- -I’m thinking you are married in other way I can’t understand why you don’t want to meet me- -well, it isn’t true but you may think what you want- -I think you are deceiving me, you are idiot, you are making me to loose my time, I hate you and I don’t want to notice from you never more, bye- -bye-.

The following day I was feeling depressed and mad with myself, she phoned me, she was crying –I love you Luis, I don’t want to miss you, I know I was bad yesterday, please come here and punish me, spank me for that- -Susana, I also love you, I also was bad, what’s my punishment?- -Love me for ever and spank me when you feel I deserve it, that’s all- -Yes I’ll do, I’ll be there next weekend, ok?- -Yes darling, I can’t wait for it. Is it going to hurt me? - -Well darling, a spanking must hurt- we hung the phone.

Friday came soon, I arrived there at lunch time, she was waiting for me at the airport, we kissed each other and went to a restaurant, we didn’t talk about the spanking she was going to take, I knew she have never been spanked for real, I have done it a few times for play, for that first time I was going to use just my hand on her, we talked about us, after lunch we was walking along the city and finally we went to her house.

When we went in her house she went to her room and changed her clothes, she came back dressing a sweat suit, pant and t-shirt, I was sitting on the couch, -Over my knees- she did, I took down her pant at her knees, then her panties, I could see her nice bottom for first time in my life, I started spanking her bottom with my hand, hard, alternating both cheeks, spanking every part of her bottom, she didn’t cry or scream, she didn’t move, I went on, harder and faster, her bottom was very red and some bruises was appearing on it, her bottom was too hot and my hand too, but she continued still, I had been spanking her for about 15 minutes, I stopped, -All is over, darling- I kissed her bottom and took up her panties and pant, -Are you well?- she sat over my knees crying softly and hugged me, I hugged her as strong as I could, then I kissed her lips, I felt I loved her more than I thought –Now I’ll start my punishment, I’ll love you for ever and I’ll spank you when you deserve it. Are you sure you want a domestic discipline relationship?- -Yes, I need it, I want you spank me when I did anything bad for myself, for yourself or for both, I want you choose when I deserve it and I want you do it though I didn’t accept it, then I want you forgive me and kiss and hug me. Do you agree about all that? - -Yes darling I agree, I know I’m starting the best relationship of my life- I kissed her again; I knew she was my dreamed woman.

After that we started a nice relationship, we met every weekends since Friday till Sunday and holidays, and I decided to move to the city she lived. I thought I had met my dreamed partner.

A few time later she posted the following post at a spanking forum:

“I have been into DD for a short time and it all started as a consensual way of putting an end to a quarrel that had been going on for a long time and then forgetting all about it. And it worked. It meant the beginning of a brand new relationship that was deeper and stronger because the anger was gone and we were capable of talking and specially listening to each other again.

Now, about the crying thing. I think that although the pain helps to open the gates and start crying and it is also important in order to feel who is really in control, most of the times it's the shame about what you did to deserve the spanking that makes it happen.

When I'm ohk, part of me feels like a little girl who is very nervous and scared about the spanking (even though I know he loves me and he won't hurt me) and who needs a relief from her emotions. At the same time the grown up is trying to hold up and maintain her feelings and her mind under control as well as all the stress it means.

For me, the crying allows the grown up to get rid of bad emotions and sometimes self-destroying feelings (like hating herself and the whole world for she not being wonder woman-in-control-and-always-right). At the same time, the little girl is also entitled to forget about all her fears and anger. Then it comes the best part, when you get all those hugs, soft words and kisses, when you cry and cuddle in his arms like a baby and you feel safe, loved and protected no matter what. And hey!! After all a sore bottom surely deserves such a reward :))

Sorry for the long speech, I don't know if it makes much sense to you, I'm still struggling to understand how come an independent and strong woman like me can sometimes benefit from a sound spanking over Luis's knee.”

Luis R.